Reflection

Reflection

In June my grandma moved in with me b/c her home was sold. I love having her here, but the last month or so has been struggle. I’m use to having a routine, I’m use to having a schedule each day I wake up. I don’t like change! When I have a plan and it unfolds b/c of things I have no control over, it frustrates me.  When I feel like I’m alone I go to want comforts me; FOOD. Even though I have so many wonderful people in my life I keep things inside. I take the issue or issues and put them away until I’m ready to deal with it. I guess I do this b/c it gives me some type of control.  Once everything inside me builds up, I explode and I become this ugly person.  

During this week being off on vacation and spending time with family, I reflected on my life, my behavior, and my relationship with God.  Satan sees me growing, so he throws rocks to block me from moving forward on my journey. I may stand there wondering why does this always happen. Every rock represents a struggle, a worry, a stress, and even my past mistakes. 

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Satan thinks he has won the battle as I take one step backwards and turn around, but what he doesn’t know is that I’m not the same girl I use to be. I take few more steps back only to run toward those ROCKS and climb over.  ” Now the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will personally restore, establish, strengthen, and support you”. 1 Peter 5:10

I have never felt more alive knowing my Father. I battle each day, but I’m not alone. Some think that once you become a Christian your life is perfect, but there is no such thing as a perfect life. I’m a Christian, but I sin just like the next person. I’m not perfect, but there is a difference in who I was and who I am now. He personally restored, established, strengthen me.  

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When  I’m scared and I don’t know how to stand, I need to look up and remember that he is there.   I don’t want to be someone who’s satisfied with occasional visits to church on Sunday morning. I need to build a relationship with God that grows stronger each day. My story isn’t over and is still being told and I want my love for God to show to everyone I meet. 

T25 is has been put on hold for now, but I will continue to workout each morning. I enjoy running, its crazy that I say that. I would have never thought I could run 2 miles without collapsing. The feeling I get from running is amazing. I feel strong and powerful when I run. I want other women no matter their size to know their worth!!! I was almost 260 pounds and I’m now 216. Anything is possible as long as you trust in the Father. I’m not running away from something, I’m running toward something. 

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The 411 On My Journey!

The 411 On My Journey!

I’m going to give you all the 411 on my journey, which means I’m going to share some fun things that have been helping me during my journey.

Apps:

Whoever created the smartphone is a genius and whoever created these awesome apps are AWESOME too.

The apps that have helping me through this journey are

1) Bible (love the devotionals in the morning)

2) RunKeeper

3) SparkRecipes

4) Zen Labs C25K

5) Skinnymom

6) Myfitnesspal

7) Sparkpeople Produce

Music:

I’m all over the place with my music. I mean one minute I can be jamming to Mercy Me then a 3 minutes later its Usher. My little Ipod has so much variety it makes me laugh to even think about. This morning when I was running Cyndi Lauper “Girls Just Want to Have Fun” came on. Yes I said it Cyndi, I just wanted to stop running and start dancing b/c I just love that song.  I’m just going to give you a glimpse into my iPod. I have so many songs and I will be here all day typing each one out.

What’s Playing on my Ipod? 

1) Girl on Fire by Alicia Keys

2) Livin’ on a Prayer by Bon Jovi

3) All this Time by Britt Nicole

4) Stand by Britt Nicole

5) Still that Girl and The Sun is Rising by Britt Nicole

6) Blown Away by Carrie Underwood

7) Army of Me by Christina Aguilera

8) Cease Fire by Christina Aguilera

9) I love Colton Dixon so his whole album in on my playlist

10) No Easy Way Out by Dj Fait

11) Poison by Groove Coverage

12) Brokenhearted and Hello by Karmin

13) Part of Me by Katy Perry

14) Mandisa her whole album is part of my playlist

15) Girls Just Want to Have Fun:  Cyndi Lauper

16) FootLoose by Kenny Longgins

17) Catch my Breath by Kelly Clarkson plus two other songs

18) Fighter by Christina Aguilera

19) Heart attack by Demi Lovato

20) Hall of Fame by the Script

A Peek into my Mornings:

Luckily I’m a morning person, but that doesn’t mean I like to wake up early on the weekends. I do cherish my sleep. I set my alarm every morning except for the weekends to 4:50 am. It’s hard and the reason I set my alarm to 4:50 in the morning is  b/c it gives me 10 minutes to fight with myself. Yes I fight with myself about getting up, I just want to stay in my cozy bed. I’m out of my bed at 5 am and I then my day starts.

I go to the bathroom before I do anything. Once that is completed I head into the kitchen.  Every morning I take Vega Sport Pre-Workout Energizer before I start my workout. The Vega Pre-Workout Energizer gives me a boost to kick my butt during my workout. Sometimes I sleep in my workout clothes and sometimes I don’t, it just truly depends on how I’m feeling before I go to bed. Once my workouts are completed I sometimes take Vega Sport Accelerator.  The Vega Accelerator helps with recovery.  I make myself breakfast and pack my lunch for the day. Hop in the shower, get ready for work, and then I’m out the door for work.

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Motivation: 

There are mornings where I don’t want to get up each morning, but I get up. I was almost 260 pounds and now I’m at 221. Is exercising hard, yes I would be lying if I say no. My faith and seeing myself grow these past few months shows me that I can do anything I put my heart into.  Start out small and end your journey in a big way. I’m finding myself with morning energy and pushing myself to do new things. I have a race called Mudderella and Old Rag Mountain to do this fall.  Don’t Limit What YOU Can Do!!! Life is to precious to sit back do nothing. I want to LIVE and I’m Kicking Butt. I’m creating a NEW ME!!!

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