Getting Real!

I know I mentioned sometime back that I would publicly tell the world my weight. I have been holding off b/c what right person whats to share their weight. My starting weight was 257, yep I just announced the deadly number. I’m now 235, I lost a total of 22 pounds. My goal weight is 145, so I have to lose 112 pounds. Now I have to lose 90 pounds to lose, I’m slowly getting there.

I’m daydreaming of that day when I finally say I weigh 145 pounds. This time its different for me b/c at 257 pounds I was on my death bed. I’m 32 years old and I have a 8 year old boy you needs me and I was slowly killing myself. I was selfish to not think about his needs. I dont want him to grow up without me. I have an apple shape body so majority of my weight is on the top. Most of the fat in an apple-shaped person is distributed around the internal organs in the abdomen area. This can be associated with a greater risk of heart disease, diabetes and stroke. I dont want to have a stroke, heart disease, or diabetes. I’m young and I want to live this life that God has blessed me with. I want to watch Zay grow up and have a family of his own.

At 257 pounds I lost 22 pounds and I’m still moving ahead even though I have hit some bumps in the road. No matter where you start at during this journey your adding more days, minutes, hours, weeks, and months to your life.  The number on the scale doesnt define who I am anymore. I’m beautiful and strong and I’m not going to hide anymore. I never felt beautiful so I ate to hide my pain, but I am beautiful and I learning to love myself each day.

I’m worth it and so are you! Dont let your insecurities take over, fight for your life.

I would like to share my God story with you all, I shared this when I was getting baptized. At a young age I saw my mom give everything she had to my dad and he didnt appreciate her.  I grew up looking for a relationship like my parents. I was so badly wanted to be loved so I lowered my standards. I was in a very unhealthy relationship, name calling and abuse was involved. I kept going back b/c I didnt think I was worth anything. When I got pregnant with Zay, I continued to go back to my ex thinking we could work things out and have a family. Eventually I got the clue that we were better off separated, but I still struggled.  I lost some weight and guys were noticing me and I enjoyed it.  I gave myself away just to be loved and one day coming home from a date the night before, God spoke to me.  He said he loved me and that my choices were not healthy. I made a choice that morning that I needed to change. Over the years I struggled with finding myself and seeing that I was worth so much more.  God knew me before I was born and he never turned his back on me.

The reason I’m sharing my God story is b/c I want others to see how amazing our God is. We all have committed sin and even though I’m a Christian I still sin, but I know that I have eternal life. “And this is what God has testified: He has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. Whoever has the Son has life; whoever does not have God’s Son does not have life. I have written this you who believe in the name of the Son of God, so that you may know you have eternal life.” John 5:11-13

I’m redeemed b/c of my faith. I found that Love that I so badly was seeking b/c of my faith.

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think” Romans 12:2

He is transforming me everyday!

I’m not writing this to force my beliefs on you. I’m sharing my God story in hopes that I can help and show that no matter where you are in life, God loves you and that its never to late.

❤ ❤ ❤

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